Zenith One Week Life

很有趣的地方，虽然办公室小而杂乱；

很有趣的同事，虽然我基本没说上几句话；

很有趣的工作，虽然需要加班到很晚；

但我仍想去心目中的google,

上班的时候接二连三的接到了面试电话，

于是我也像同事般毫无顾忌地聊电话，

这两天我喜欢拒人，只是因为自己被拒吧。

Anyway，实习不在于好，要自己喜欢。

Tracks Imma Deaf To

断点
I was wondering around the breaking point for long.
I know it's not the end, bt now the end.

Fallin
I tried and tried to forget or to change.
When i was falling, i got awake as you recalled.

I Miss You
I miss you, and the miss never dies.
I was feared of your forgetting me.

Breathless
When i got your access, i was dreaming of a happy ending.
I was breathless beside you.

Bad Day
But it's a bad day became nightmare of me.
I saw you lying alone, but flying away.

Tonight I Wanna Cry
I was tearing when you are asleep.
I teared out after the day.

Am I Still The One
I am still the one, but not to the you now.
I have missed the right time.

I Just Want You to Love Me
But i only held one thing: i just want you to love me.
Without companied, without saw or heard.

I Hate Myself For Loving You
I was thinking of having not loved you.
Even i was fancying not having met you in my life.

残酷月光
When i was on the bed, moon lights, esp those of the Lantern Festival,
was killing me like swords.

如果没有你
Were not you, i cannot live till then.
Were not you, i will not like dreaming and waiting.
Were not you, i would not be hurt to nothing.

Save Me From Myself
No one can save me, the one i once believed is escaping me.
But tell me how i can save me from myself?

I Love You
Eventually, i find the only thing i have never doubted,
I love you.

Am I Still the One?

When i lost you for the first time,
i came to know i loved and love you.
When i am missing you every time,
i emerged in the memories of you.
When i am depressed,
i get up as you are still there.
When i find you after years,
i think god is making a dream for me.
When i get along with you,
i hypnotize myself to the past and forward the future.
When i lay on the bed with you,
i teared into heart break that you are not mine.
When i listened to AM I STILL THE ONE beside you,
i ask myself thousand of times the question.
When i am abandoned by you,
i feel no light in my life and no focus over my eyes.
When i am about to death,
i see image of you fading away.

If i could have another life,
Don't crash into my life.
If i could have another life,
Don't leave me again.
If i could have another life,
Don't hurt me without kindness.

Those unforgettable numbers you gave me,
6 years, Jan. 28th, Feb. 21th, Feb. 25th...

Daniel Powter - Am I Still The One

眼里

唯有拥有一切的人才能目空一切，

而我只不过是一个什么都没有的贱货。

年轻的时候，我总是目空一切，

因为那时候想要的都拥有，

一年一年的过去了，成长的不仅是身体，

还有那可怕的欲望，

因为有了更大的欲望，所以不再满足，

开始奢望，渴求，奢求种种...

于是慢慢地就成为了欲望脚下的贱货，

却仍不自知，越发地张扬，

直到有一天，

意识到自己已经成为形形色色人脚下的贱货时，

才开始追溯，才开始嗟叹...

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很久不更新了，大陆连服务器也不方便

但是在out of campus之前，我仍不希望自己被当成消费品（或商品，我说不上来）

在没有利益相关时，在没有unique selling point后，我只是个贱货吧！

那你也不过是一个只会向贱货乞讨的乞丐。

仅以此纪念Mar.8th

这一天或者应该献给对每个人来说都最重要的那位妇女。

正如更新的sign:
Everything has a finale tomorrow, special day with unexpected ends.

当天平失去平衡的时候，做减法会比加法容易，因为一切都不那么重要了。

心情很平静，但暗藏的那一丝悸动，在适当的时刻会开始侵略；

不想付出代价，因为还有那么的重要，但现实总不尽如人意；

明天，重重回响落下后，幸存下来的继续生活吧。

just for share
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好久不上Qzone，好久不去某个地方

看到了这段话：

我可以背过身去 管他世事变迁 但还是深深犹豫着

Immersed in Huzhou 2 -- Past && Future

很早就有起来，应该是12点左右，在床上发呆for long，起来吃元宵，今天的汤圆都叫元宵！

只吃了3个，有馅的汤圆真不适合我 =。=

江南是一个能够给人以灵感的地方，所以才有了这么多才子佳人，所以才有了这么多雕栏玉砌的建筑。

(Feiying Tower: Tower in Tower, Tower under Tower.)

想写的一段终于在湖州回来时动笔：

故事发生在两个人之间，一个没有过去的人和一个没有未来的人。

没有过去的人：我没有过去，因为我再也不想回忆起那段过去。

没有未来的人：我没有未来，因为我的过去让我看不到未来。

(Lake Tai: Road from Nowhere to Nowhere, but Now Here.)

不再拥有的过去和不曾拥有的未来，站在现在的人只能迷茫地看风景。

(Lake Tai: Focused at Infinity.)

没有过去和没有未来的人总是忘记自己有现在。

Immersed in Huzhou 1 -- 习惯也是一种痛

从湖州回来，感觉有些东西留在了那里，那留给那座有趣城市里有趣的人吧。

6点多回到家，想从冰箱里拿出速食品微波，发现竟然是菜馒头(ino应该称包子bt...)

咬下第一口，某些留在某时某地的记忆突然出现在脑海中...

那时你总是和我一起吃菜馒头当正餐

现在的我总是习惯吃菜馒头

总是习惯选择可爱多和梦龙

总是习惯用印有"SNOOPY"的蓝色水笔

总是习惯喜欢彩虹的颜色

......

即时已经没有交集许多年，这些习惯却牢牢记住了你，代替着你惩罚我那时的无知。

“对不起”，我想这是我唯一可以说的，给予那时的你和现在的我

lyrics of the time and feeling

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想起我们有过的从前

泪水一滴一滴开始蔓延

有的时候，习惯也会变成一种痛。